Over the hill???

Interesting how the new age of "being old" is . . . let's just say when you're in that 25 and older bracket. What sucks is that you have to do 1 of 2 things - Lie about it or Pretend you're not. Both of these things I've tried and it gets rather difficult to keep up. Just like the saying goes - once you tell one lie or "pretend" - it just leads to more and more and more lies. 

The current friends in my circle, let's see: I don't think ANY of them REALLY know my age. And I kinda like it to stay that way. Why? Well 1. It's embarrassing when you can't talk about how you're "so happy to see your parents when they come into town." Parent-less, I have to fake my excitement when they all are so gitty about they're parents PAYING for (every)things for them. Ummm I wish! Psh! That ended before I finished grade school lol. 2. You want to fit in don't you? You damn right! When you're surrounded by younger people, you feel younger. You can have a good time bc no knows that you're "over it." You know . . . the talks about boys and the let's smoke all night. Ummm no. I would rather watch a reality TV show and eat a tub of ice cream, then later on cry myself to sleep bc I'm ? years old! 3. If everyone thinks you're younger . . . why not go along with it? That just means you're doing something right . . . that extra dance class a day keeps you "young" I guess. 4. If they knew you're REAL age then, they'd start feeling all bad for you bc you haven't accomplished anything and you're still broke. However, the gist of remorse would be "awwww sorry." (Then you roll your eyes as they turn their backs, reappearing with a fake smile)

I don't know. The whole age thing baffles me sometimes . . . I'm in my prime; I can feel it. Though, as I look around - I guess prime means burnt rather than a good piece of meat cooked to perfection. And burnt usually means you need to throw it away. Annnnnnnnd I don't know how I feel about that yet. I always thought that old meant like 60, which means by then, I'll be decrypted huh? That really sucks!

Well I forgot what this entry was really about but let's recap: Does being 25 and older mean that you're life should start to make a drastic turn? Society already thinks you should be engaged and shortly after be buying a house and having a kid. Let me tell you what it means in the dance industry . . . "ummmm why are you still trying to dance? You better be trying to teach and do choreography or something- directing maybe? Doesn't look to good for you./I'll put you in my Carnival piece (that'll make you feel better.)" 

I thought we grew wiser with age, like a fine wine? No? Well . . . here's your lesson for the day: Do anything and everything to disquise that shit until you get caught! haha 

keepin it young - signing out.